Lunchbox

I took a picture, of heaven when we broke down...

2007-07-09T07:48:24Z

We missed the point in living
so caught up in this moment
we threw out our convictions and traded them for substance.

This life you hold so near...

Will fade in time.

If you are alive, then be truly alive.

Just open up your eyes.

Pay attention to the signs.

The color of this sky, an endless night.

And so it goes, no we won't let go
And so it goes, no we won't, we won't let go

This life

You hold so near

Will fade in time.

Music is amazing...

2006-08-14T15:05:18Z

Just listening to some Death Cab this weekend and I finally actually heard the lyrics, as in I realized what they were really saying and talking about... they are amazing.

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?..

; - ;

I also just recently listened to their song Tiny Vessels and I really liked it as well:

This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.

I spent two weeks in Silverlake
The California sun cascading down my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks
And she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.
Yeah she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.

I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling
And all the playful misspellings
And every bite I gave you left a mark

And tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did and so did I that day

All I see are dark grey clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you ask "Was something wrong?"
That I think "You're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."

So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me

I love music.

Stolen from Misha

2006-08-03T02:23:44Z

I usually don't do this but I really liked this game so here we go!

Playlist Meme
Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play.
Step 2: Write down your favorite line from the first 20 songs that play.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from. No cheating and googling the stuff.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

~~1: "I've been waiting for answers, dancing in circles making me sick. I've been chained like a tiger to hundreds of liars, all holding hands."~~

2: "Here wait, so I guess that you knew, That you're a selfish little whore, I'm the selfish little whore, If I had my way I'd crush your face in the door."

~~3: "Have another drink and drive yourself home, I hope there's ice on all the road and that you think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windshield."~~

~~4: "I've got my back against the record machine, I ain't the worst that you've seen, Oh can't you see what I mean?"~~

~~5: "You say you'll listen cause you'd like to live together lives, but come on, you could have any other boy to take my place and hold when you're feeling alone."~~

~~6: "I Heard you crying loud all the way across town, you've been searching for that someone and its me out on the prowl."~~

~~7: "Tiny vessels oozed into your neck, and formed the bruises, that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did, and so did I that day."~~

8: "I know it sounds a little dumb or maybe we’re a little drunk, but all we need is some ice cream and a hug."

9: "Well you'd like to think that you were invincible. Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time? Well this is the last time. This is the last time."

~~10: "With the top down seat back rollin' in my Cadillac, Self control knowing right from wrong is what I lack, Top down seat back, Rollin' in my Cadillac."~~

~~11: "Work your cares away(clap clap), Dancing for another day, Let the Fraggles play(clap clap), We're Johnny Scottie Skippy Tim! Punk rock!"~~

12: "We'll wreck our clothes, we'll scrape our knees, we'll taste the scabs you, sweet, are worth these next four months
until I bail out and kiss behind your ears, drive off in the van. Oh my god, I think I'm dying in this car seat, where I'll spend through winter."

~~13: "Silence in black and white falling forward as she walks toward the light."~~

14: "I'm sure you always feel my eyes on you, but i hope that you will never feel unwanted... If you feel unwanted; Wait for me to move out west, it's ok if you don't, I hope you know you're my favorite thing about the west coast, I wish I stayed, I hope you wait, so here I am counting down the days till california comes."

~~15: "I talked for hours to your wallet photograph and you just listened. You laughed enchanted by my intellect or maybe you didn't."~~

16: "Something real, make it timeless, an act of God and nothing less will be accepted so if you're calling me out,
then count me out."

~~17: "Oh, why'd ya have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you, must you make me laugh so much? It's bad enough we get along so well.. Say goodnight and go."~~

~~18: "God I wish I could hate you the rest of my life, god I wish I could hate you for the rest of my life, nothing would make me happier."~~

~~19: "Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes that I am not there, I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this like every inch of me is bruised, bruised."~~

~~20: "Just one more breath, I beg you please, Just one more step, my knees are weak, My heart is sturdy but it needs you to survive, My heart is sturdy but it needs you."~~

Woot and such

2006-05-18T08:40:59Z

I don't have much to say really... I'm done with college... Ended with three A's and an A- (as well as a P, as I pass/failed one class). I also JUST found out that I also got into Gradschool... So I'm all set to get my Masters on the Art of Teaching Social Studies... No rest for the weary, back to school in September but I don't leave Long Island... how strange. Oh well its almost 5am and the birds are singing so I have to try and go to sleep. Senior Formal today (although I am not going) then the Senior BBQ friday, Graduation and the commencement eve dinner/dance Saturday and then Graduation Sunday.

Four years went by so fast...

Going back to school is depressing.

2006-01-16T05:45:30Z

I'm leaving in about 5 hours to come back up to school and I'm absolutely miserable over it. I just want to stay home with my parents, my dog etc. This dosn't mean that I don't want to see everyone up at school or Andi, I do, but I hate being four hours away from my family. I'm so ready for school to be over. I only have class Monday->Wednesday this semester so I forsee a few extra trips down home and a few stops on the Cape to visit Andi... All the while I have to be working on my senoir thesis, the directed study and my classwork... hopefully it won't be painful. Oh, and I get to take the GREs soon... That will be fun. I don't even know what to do with myself right now. I could pack up the rest of my stuff and put it in the car, but then what? I'm not tired. I'm not happy enough to play video games (when does THAT happen?!!?). I'd really like to be upstairs with my parents but they have to sleep...

Hopefully I'll be ok in a day or two when school really starts... I don't know what I'll do if I'm not.

48 days until Spring Break.
126 days until graduation.

I hope it goes fast...

In a month I bet I'll be hoping it slows down.

mggenn @ 2006-01-05T03:31:00

2006-01-05T08:31:40Z

You are a protector.
Yes, you don't like to kill people. That goes
against everything you belive in. It's not that
you are a coward, but your ideals and morals
wouldn't allow it. You are the typical hero, do
the righteous things, get the bad guys and do
it all legally. But just because you don't kill
doesn't mean you can't kick ass. And that is
what you do. You use your brain and your
strenght to do honourable deeds and protect
people you know and love. If an evil guy is
going to take over the world soon, it's you who
will get involved. You hate watching innocents
suffer, and love seeing bad people getting what
they deserve. You are probably also happy and
optimistic and work pretty good in groups. And
the friends you usually make are true ones.

Main weapon: Anything at all
Quote: "You only live once, but if
you do it right, once is enough" -Joe
Lewis
Facial expression: Smile

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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My brain shall explode!

2005-12-14T05:57:10Z

I've been doing so much work... my brain hurts so much.

Handing in two papers tomorrow... not sure how good they are...

Two more to go... those should be ok... so basically tomorrow is my last painful day... sorta.

Blech. Vacation is going to feel so good.

mggenn @ 2005-12-05T03:01:00

2005-12-05T08:01:17Z

You are Bahamut!
You scored 22 good or evil, 23 spirituality, 6 power, and 9 intelligence!

Do you hear that? Something on the horizon stirs a cyclone from thin air, clouds boil and darken, the air grows chill as an unmistakeable sound pierces the air. The clouds part and a stream of pure white light streaks the sky, obliterating anything it touches, sparking countless explosions and drawing both gasps of terror and screams of agony in chorus. Granted, Bahamut has been known to play both sides, but he's usually on the side of good. He's extremely old, very wise, and lacking none of the power he wielded long ago. Basically he's a demi-god, but for our purposes he's the embodiment of all the best traits - intelligence, spirit, strength and good. Appearing in practically every single Final Fantasy in some form or other, Bahamut is synonymous with not only power, but strength of will, wisdom and strength of character. I must applaud you, test taker, for you are in a class all your own. If you really measure up to Bahamut's impressive list of attributes, you're alright in my book. Your polar opposite is the Goblin. You're likely to get along with anyone aligned with Good.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 88% on purity

You scored higher than 93% on faith

You scored higher than 45% on strength

You scored higher than 27% on intelligence

Link: The Who are you in the FF Universe Test written by Helbereth on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Another Photoshop Project Picture

2005-11-30T20:56:50Z

This is the third I've done now... Decided to only do one more, but here it is

If you don't get it, here is what is goin on. Heavenscloud is flexing, while Pennylain and Rumari laugh at him. Arioka is off on the left comforting him and I'm against a pillar sighing over his flexing... Nerdy I know!

Taste of Photoshop...

2005-11-30T02:27:49Z

For my final Photoshop project I am inserting video game models into real life pictures... thus FFXI chars in pictures I took around school etc... Here are the first two.

The real ones, not compressed by Photobucket, look much better.

Note the Galka jocks playing frisbee in the back and the Taru mages walking to class =p

mggenn @ 2005-11-23T02:04:00

2005-11-23T07:04:45Z

Insomnia sucks

Ugh

2005-11-14T09:41:29Z

I'm just not happy here anymore.

School work is killing me.

I just want to be done and go on with life.

I need thanksgiving and christmas... I think I'll feel much better after being home.

So... Tired...

2005-10-25T14:41:22Z

This entry is a placeholder to remind me to write about the stupid shit I have flowing around in my head after I finish this paper due by 1... I really need to lose this inability to do work so I can not be up all night writing papers anymore.

mggenn @ 2005-10-18T13:08:00

2005-10-18T17:08:55Z

College is needing to revise a paper due at 3:30pm when it is 1pm but posting this on your live journal instead, Huzzah!

I had to, from Lauren's Journal... and this will prove no one reads this =p

2005-10-18T04:22:11Z

Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll tell you something I've always admired about you.
8. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
9. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

I'm getting old.

2005-10-13T04:24:44Z

Apparently I am 21 now and I completely forgot...

Thanks to John (Phoenixace, yes a friend from FFXI) for reminding me... >.>

Putting off work...

2005-10-12T21:16:56Z

Just putting off work to post a newer picture of my dog...

If you scroll down you'll see what she looked like when we got her... she is much, much bigger than when we got her. ^_^

I like when songs make you feel.

2005-10-12T07:23:24Z

I'm tired, cynical and broken, but wiser heavy with a sense of resentment, but I used to be so much different, I used to have so much faith
when I started, you knew that I always meant it, I knew I could make a difference, I struggled to be heard and then finally, one day people started listening...

And I knew it, but as soon as it began it was ruined. A slow descent from unique to routine, over and over "Just do it again and this time with feeling," the spotlight, all the focus on the friends and the feelings, that made those stupid songs all worth singing and don't you say a word unless you're pretty sure that you want it analyzed...

So we drove for what seemed like days over roads and four lane highways, we said all we had to say and I realized in time that it didn't mean... and we drove for what seemed like days over roads and four lane highways, we said all we had to say and I realized in time that it didn't mean anything...

Never
Not ever again...
Not like that
"It's only a matter of time"

A Slow Descent by Straylight Run

mggenn @ 2005-08-28T02:36:00

2005-08-28T06:38:27Z

Well it is about 2:30 am... I start the trip back to school at 6am, which means I'll do all my sleeping in the car.

I think the saddest time for me has to be sitting up late like this, tired and leaving home. Saying good bye to everyone from home... I'll be fine as soon as I get there, but as for now, I feel pretty shitty.

Check out my dog.

2005-05-15T21:47:26Z

We finally got a dog, so check her out, cause she is the cutest dog evah!

If anyone cares...

2005-05-11T16:18:49Z

On a Quick note: For those that don't know, Jon Suh and I have been good friends for a long time. Since he is the only person I know that is a 100% live journal whore and thus would be reading my live journal I choose to leave him special messages like... Hey Suh! Why you livin so long you bastard?! or... Suh! Why do you suck so bad?! Or even... SUH SMELLS!! HAHAHAHA BURNED!

<3 Jon Suh... for me to poop on.

mggenn @ 2005-05-11T04:03:00

2005-05-11T07:59:42Z

Oh, if anyone reads this and actually wants to see me... especially if I have not seen you in a while... get in touch with me... Reply here, whatever. I really want to try to not be super lazy this summer... just pretty lazy =p

It's almost over!!!!

2005-05-11T07:54:07Z

Today is my last full day on campus for my junior year of college... Hell yeah! All that stands between me and utter freedom is revising one paper and handing it in and then writing a seven page paper. With any luck at all I will be done early in the evening so I can get ready to get up early, pack up and come home.

I am so excited for this summer. I mean, I have to work and all that... but Andi is going to come live with me for July and August... The last Get up Kids Show in NYC... Warped Tour in August... I plan on recording some covers... It should be a good summer. I just hope I can force myself out of the house more... typically I use the summer to completely veg out and prepare for another year of hard work at school... On a quick side note, College has taught me I am not as smart as I used to think, it seems like I have to work a lot more than everyone else to just get B's... Not fun, but anyway... The summer should rock!... I just hope I don't spend it all alone in my room or standing on a corner in town... People have to want to do things other than stand around... Games... Movies... Clubs... I dunno, anything to get away from the norm... Too bad no one I know really plays any instruments (Jon Suh, before you post something about playing guitar, you never learned how to play "And your bird can sing" with me all those years ago, so bite me! ^_^) and no one seems to be content with just sitting around anymore... Funny I fell into a group of friends that can just sit around, have a few drinks, watch some movies, and just talk...

We are Boys Gone... MILD. as Shawn calls us... Pretty lame I know.

Anyway, I guess that is it for now. Aren't you glad you wasted your time reading this?

mggenn @ 2005-04-28T15:54:00

2005-04-28T19:50:10Z

Apparently god hates me. I wrote a whole post and it vanishes on me 5 minutes before class.

Fuck the world.

Because I go home soon and should be sleeping...

2005-04-28T07:18:26Z

Just about all of these apply to me... its kinda sad... Thanks to Lauren for posting it first...

Good old LI... I shall see you in 14 days.

You Know You're From Long Island When...

You know someone who went to Chaminade.

Jones Beach Theater is the best place in the world to see a concert. CASE CLOSED!

Is it just me, or is every girl from Rockville Centre a bitch?

Billy Joel said it best, "Either you date a rich girl from the North Shore, or a cool girl from the South Shore."

What's the big deal about the Hamptons?

If you're not from Long Island or NYC, you're not really from New York.

You don't go to Manhattan, you go to "the City"

You know the Belt Parkway sucks!

You never, ever want to "change at Jamaica..."

You never realize you have an accent until you leave.

You know where at least one strip club is.

You can name at least three bands that came from Long Island.

You curse. A lot.

Is Huntington really that cool?

You've been to Utopia at least once.

The goddamn geese are everywhere!

If your parents didn't, your grandparents lived in the city.

At some point in your life you or someone you know has owned an animal that came from North Shore Animal League.

You actually remember when you felt safe swimming at Bar Beach and Hempstead Harbor.

Commack movie theatre scares you

You walk around the mall aimlessly.

You drive around your town with your friends, and that's the most exciting part of your evening.

On the weekend, your evening consists of seeing a movie, going bowling, or playing pool.

When you walk in the city and you see two men holding hands...it becomes normal to you.

No word ends in an ER, just an AH.

You feel like you know Howard Stern.

You live in the shadow of the greatest city in the world, but you never go there.

When you're away from Long Island, you love it and when you're there, you don't.

You know that the beach sucks during the day and is the most magical place in the world at night

You know the exact point at which Queens turns into Nassau simply on intuition.

You're still waiting for a bridge to Connecticut.

You've tried to use your father's monthly ticket to ride the LIRR. It worked.

No matter what you do, you end up at the diner.

Your distant future might involve the state of Florida.

High school sports aren't that important.

You've never been to Times Square on New Year's Eve.

You've tried to find the Amityville Horror house.

Each one of your diverse friends mercilessly makes fun of his own background.

You love that salty smell of the ocean.

No, you don't want mustard on that burger!

The most exciting day of your summer is when all tickets to every Jones Beach show go on sale.

You know White Castle is terrible for you and the food sucks. But, you periodically "Get the Crave"

You want the Yankees to stay in the Bronx, but would probably go to more games if they moved to Manhattan.

You can order a pizza pie and a soda and people will understand.

You felt slighted when Snapple sold out.

You don't associate Fire Island with gay men.

You wanted Hooters to open simply to piss off "decency" groups.

You watched a game show and wondered, "why are these people so happy that they won a trip to New York?"

You like The Brothers McMullen.

When you hear Billy Joel's "Scenes From an Italian Restaurant" you try to figure out what places on Long Island he's talking about.

You know that parts of the Godfather were filmed on LI.

You always liked Billy Joel, but as soon as you leave, you love Billy Joel.

At some point in your life, you've gone clamming.

You've been to the Tanger Outlets and came home with nothing to show for it.

You have or someone you know has fallen asleep on the LIRR and ended up in one of these three places; Babylon, Port Washington or Hicksville.

You have been to Mulcahay's on Thanksgiving Eve, the largest ladies night event
of every year.

You've missed that "Drunk Train", the 2:42 out of Penn and had the dreaded wait until 5:30.

You think Islip MacArthur airport is cute and you enjoy watching it grow up.

Your parents took you to Nathans or Carvel

You hate the radio commercials for the Dublin Pub

Public beach? What's that?

You can correctly pronouce places like Happauge, Commack, Islip, Islandia, Massapequa.

You know the location of 6 malls and a dozen McDonalds and 36 7-11's.

You grew up thinking Chinese food was a basic food group.

You're used to driving down the street in December and seeing more light-up menorahs than you can shake a latka at. In fact, even your non-Jewish friends know what Matzoh is. And you've never driven more than 10 miles without seeing a temple.

Oh, your parents are from Brooklyn? So are mine!

Yes, admit it, you've cruised the Pike.

You can remember making up rules for “Shotgun” calls in high school.

Your elementary school promoted dodge ball as the top gym activity.

You were upset when all the Roy Rogers turned into Wendy’s.

You consider nachos and cheese at the Coliseum to be a suitable dinner date.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Long Island.

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