Lunchbox

We missed the point in living
so caught up in this moment
we threw out our convictions and traded them for substance.

This life you hold so near...

Will fade in time.





If you are alive, then be truly alive.

Just open up your eyes.

Pay attention to the signs.

The color of this sky, an endless night.



And so it goes, no we won't let go
And so it goes, no we won't, we won't let go

This life

You hold so near



Will fade in time.

Just listening to some Death Cab this weekend and I finally actually heard the lyrics, as in I realized what they were really saying and talking about... they are amazing.


( What Sarah Said )

I also just recently listened to their song Tiny Vessels and I really liked it as well:

( Tiny Vessels )

I love music.

I usually don't do this but I really liked this game so here we go!

Playlist Meme
Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play.
Step 2: Write down your favorite line from the first 20 songs that play.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from. No cheating and googling the stuff.
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

( Reis will get these all in one shot... )

I don't have much to say really... I'm done with college... Ended with three A's and an A- (as well as a P, as I pass/failed one class). I also JUST found out that I also got into Gradschool... So I'm all set to get my Masters on the Art of Teaching Social Studies... No rest for the weary, back to school in September but I don't leave Long Island... how strange. Oh well its almost 5am and the birds are singing so I have to try and go to sleep. Senior Formal today (although I am not going) then the Senior BBQ friday, Graduation and the commencement eve dinner/dance Saturday and then Graduation Sunday.

Four years went by so fast...

I'm leaving in about 5 hours to come back up to school and I'm absolutely miserable over it. I just want to stay home with my parents, my dog etc. This dosn't mean that I don't want to see everyone up at school or Andi, I do, but I hate being four hours away from my family. I'm so ready for school to be over. I only have class Monday->Wednesday this semester so I forsee a few extra trips down home and a few stops on the Cape to visit Andi... All the while I have to be working on my senoir thesis, the directed study and my classwork... hopefully it won't be painful. Oh, and I get to take the GREs soon... That will be fun. I don't even know what to do with myself right now. I could pack up the rest of my stuff and put it in the car, but then what? I'm not tired. I'm not happy enough to play video games (when does THAT happen?!!?). I'd really like to be upstairs with my parents but they have to sleep...

Hopefully I'll be ok in a day or two when school really starts... I don't know what I'll do if I'm not.

48 days until Spring Break.
126 days until graduation.

I hope it goes fast...


In a month I bet I'll be hoping it slows down.

You are a protector.
Yes, you don't like to kill people. That goes
against everything you belive in. It's not that
you are a coward, but your ideals and morals
wouldn't allow it. You are the typical hero, do
the righteous things, get the bad guys and do
it all legally. But just because you don't kill
doesn't mean you can't kick ass. And that is
what you do. You use your brain and your
strenght to do honourable deeds and protect
people you know and love. If an evil guy is
going to take over the world soon, it's you who
will get involved. You hate watching innocents
suffer, and love seeing bad people getting what
they deserve. You are probably also happy and
optimistic and work pretty good in groups. And
the friends you usually make are true ones.

Main weapon: Anything at all
Quote: "You only live once, but if
you do it right, once is enough" -Joe
Lewis
Facial expression: Smile


What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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I've been doing so much work... my brain hurts so much.

Handing in two papers tomorrow... not sure how good they are...

Two more to go... those should be ok... so basically tomorrow is my last painful day... sorta.

Blech. Vacation is going to feel so good.

You are Bahamut! You scored 22 good or evil, 23 spirituality, 6 power, and 9 intelligence!

Do you hear that? Something on the horizon stirs a cyclone from thin air, clouds boil and darken, the air grows chill as an unmistakeable sound pierces the air. The clouds part and a stream of pure white light streaks the sky, obliterating anything it touches, sparking countless explosions and drawing both gasps of terror and screams of agony in chorus. Granted, Bahamut has been known to play both sides, but he's usually on the side of good. He's extremely old, very wise, and lacking none of the power he wielded long ago. Basically he's a demi-god, but for our purposes he's the embodiment of all the best traits - intelligence, spirit, strength and good. Appearing in practically every single Final Fantasy in some form or other, Bahamut is synonymous with not only power, but strength of will, wisdom and strength of character. I must applaud you, test taker, for you are in a class all your own. If you really measure up to Bahamut's impressive list of attributes, you're alright in my book. Your polar opposite is the Goblin. You're likely to get along with anyone aligned with Good.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 88% on purity You scored higher than 93% on faith You scored higher than 45% on strength You scored higher than 27% on intelligence

Link: The Who are you in the FF Universe Test written by Helbereth on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

This is the third I've done now... Decided to only do one more, but here it is



If you don't get it, here is what is goin on. Heavenscloud is flexing, while Pennylain and Rumari laugh at him. Arioka is off on the left comforting him and I'm against a pillar sighing over his flexing... Nerdy I know!

For my final Photoshop project I am inserting video game models into real life pictures... thus FFXI chars in pictures I took around school etc... Here are the first two.





The real ones, not compressed by Photobucket, look much better.

Note the Galka jocks playing frisbee in the back and the Taru mages walking to class =p

Insomnia sucks

I'm just not happy here anymore.

School work is killing me.

I just want to be done and go on with life.

I need thanksgiving and christmas... I think I'll feel much better after being home.

This entry is a placeholder to remind me to write about the stupid shit I have flowing around in my head after I finish this paper due by 1... I really need to lose this inability to do work so I can not be up all night writing papers anymore.

College is needing to revise a paper due at 3:30pm when it is 1pm but posting this on your live journal instead, Huzzah!

Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll tell you something I've always admired about you.
8. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
9. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Apparently I am 21 now and I completely forgot...

Thanks to John (Phoenixace, yes a friend from FFXI) for reminding me... >.>

Just putting off work to post a newer picture of my dog...



If you scroll down you'll see what she looked like when we got her... she is much, much bigger than when we got her. ^_^

I'm tired, cynical and broken, but wiser heavy with a sense of resentment, but I used to be so much different, I used to have so much faith
when I started, you knew that I always meant it, I knew I could make a difference, I struggled to be heard and then finally, one day people started listening...

And I knew it, but as soon as it began it was ruined. A slow descent from unique to routine, over and over "Just do it again and this time with feeling," the spotlight, all the focus on the friends and the feelings, that made those stupid songs all worth singing and don't you say a word unless you're pretty sure that you want it analyzed...

So we drove for what seemed like days over roads and four lane highways, we said all we had to say and I realized in time that it didn't mean... and we drove for what seemed like days over roads and four lane highways, we said all we had to say and I realized in time that it didn't mean anything...

Never
Not ever again...
Not like that
"It's only a matter of time"


A Slow Descent by Straylight Run

Well it is about 2:30 am... I start the trip back to school at 6am, which means I'll do all my sleeping in the car.

I think the saddest time for me has to be sitting up late like this, tired and leaving home. Saying good bye to everyone from home... I'll be fine as soon as I get there, but as for now, I feel pretty shitty.

We finally got a dog, so check her out, cause she is the cutest dog evah!